Bare with me. This post is different than my normal blog posts. Being vulnerable on the internet is not my forte. Never has been, never will be? I don't know. The more I grow, the more I want to share; in hopes that someone will find my words and it will be exactly what they need to hear. My decision to post this on Instagram and here was not an easy one but I felt it important to share.
How are you doing? No seriously, how are you REALLY doing? • I asked myself that a lot last year and truthfully, I’m embarrassed to admit I wasn’t doing good.
Behind the pretty social media pictures and fun stories, I was struggling. I wasn’t the best version of myself. There were more days I didn’t like myself than loved myself. When everything on the outside seemed right, why was I feeling this way on the inside?
I still don’t know the answer. The mind is a tricky thing to understand, especially when the enemy knows it’s your weakness.
I’m not exactly sure what changed- maybe the 3 therapy sessions and (definitely) a lot of prayer, but a flip was switched and I realized something I’ve always known and now will always remember: You are loved. You are SO dang loved! You don’t have to prove yourself. God is enough, so you don’t have to be.
Seasons of anxiety and depression are normal. But if you find yourself living there too long, please reach out. Let me know how I can pray for you.
via @ihearcarson on Instagram